This is the fun part

While I was duly disappointed that confetti did not, in fact, rain down at the exact same moment as “Offer” appeared in my inbox and I was even more peeved to learn that despite just receiving a book deal I had to, yanno, actually do work that day (the nerve, I tell you!), I nevertheless was super excited to get to celebrate with friends and family.

I got my “yes” in the form of an email on a Monday morning with the subject line “Offer for Alive.” It was a huge surprise since we were actually waiting for the book to go to an acquisitions meeting at another house that week and so I hadn’t been expecting much just then. I won’t lie. I think I got through about half of the email before calling Rob. Which was quickly followed by calls to my parents–I had to track down my mom through a friend of hers that was visiting because I didn’t want her to be the last to know!–and my critique partner, Shana.

Since that was the day that I knew my book would be a book (!!!), we had a few friends over for pizza and champagne.

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And later that week, I was lucky enough for one of my sweet friends to come down for even more champagne!

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And Emily gave me this:

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Which was, of course, only subtle peer pressure to go with her favorite company…

And then, for reasons mostly unrelated to the adorable Mickey sitting next to my laptop, I DID decide to go with Disney! And since the official Publishers Marketplace announcement is out, here it is:

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Chandler Baker’s debut ALIVE, pitched as in the vein of Gayle Foreman and Lauren Oliver, about a girl recovering from a heart transplant, whose recovery (acclimating back to home and school life) also introduces disturbing side effects and hallucinations that haunt her every day, as she soon discovers the line between life and death is more fragile than even a girl with a replacement heart could imagine, to Emily Meehan at Disney-Hyperion, with Laura Schreiber editing, at auction, by Daniel Lazar at Writers House on behalf of Nick Harris at The Story Foundation.

This is kind of a big deal

I promise I have thought about writing this post for-literally-ever, but now that it’s here I have no idea how to go about it. So here’s what I have to say:

Once upon a time (okay, let’s call it 2008), I wrote a book. It wasn’t very good. So I wrote another book and I signed with the amazing agent, Dan Lazar at Writers House. This book went out to editors and it was close, but not quiiiiiittteee close enough.

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Ugh

And that when that book didn’t sell, it hurt. I spent the next several years ghostwriting. And I learned a ton and gained a lot of confidence and felt like a “real” writer. But still, these books weren’t mine. And they sure as hell didn’t have MY name on them.

So, in September, I started writing another book. In fact, I turned in a draft of this book exactly 2 weeks before my wedding (yes, my husband is a patient, patient man) and, well, it needed some work. So after revisions upon a few revisions, finally it was ready. And so began the longest (read: actually not very long) wait of my life. I have never wanted something so badly and yet worried so much it wouldn’t happen. I could think about nothing else other than if my book would find a home, but I told no one.

But then, something crazy happened. Someone liked the book. And not just in the like-it-but-don’t-love-it way. The ‘but’ was conspicuously absent and so I went from total meltdown mode to…

And then another someone liked the book and I was all like…

And then yesterday day happened. And yesterday I got to talk to my (OMG) new editors and after that we officially accepted a book deal from…..wait for it…wait for it…

DISNEY-HYPERION!!!!

I die. Seriously. I can’t believe this is happening, y’all.

Disney will publish my debut young adult novel, currently titled ALIVE, sometime in early 2015. I am still pinching myself. This is truly a dream come true and I couldn’t be happier to join the Disney-Hyperion family. I also couldn’t imagine a more perfect place for me and for my book and, yeah, I can’t wait. I’m freaking out!

Now, if you’ll please excuse my extreme sappiness while I Oscar-speech this moment:

There are a million, zillion people to thank, but I wanted to send special thanks to these people:

To my agent, Dan Lazar, for not giving up on me. To Emily Meehan and Laura Schreiber, my new editors at Disney, for loving this book and making my dream come true.

To Shana Silver and Jen Hayley who have listened every step of the way over the past 5 years. I wouldn’t have survived with you. To those who read Alive–Chris Von Halle, Jen Maschari (and probably a few others I’m forgetting) and gave invaluable feedback and encouragement.  To the Hopefuls and AW peeps. To Nick Harris, Tabitha Schick and The Story Foundation for your endless enthusiasm for the book and for believing in me. To Charlotte Huang for coming in as a new, but wonderful part of my everyday writing life and keeping me motivated. To all of my law school girls–Kelley, Emily, Sara and Christine–who have been incredibly & irrationally supportive. To my parents for instilling in me a love of books and for believing in me. And to my husband, who lives with my writerly quirks every day, who stomachs an alarming amount of book talk and does so much for me without complaint so that I can sneak time to write.

In short, I’m incredibly blessed to get to do the thing I want to do.

More details to follow, along with pictures of the celebrations that have been going on in my household over the last few weeks. But for now…

YOU GUYS, I’M GOING TO BE AN AUTHOR!!

Oh wait, no this:

Recently…

Here’s a quick look at what I’ve been up to recently:

I have…

 

…had a call with my agent about new books and projects

…started writing a new YA for which my agent’s enthusiasm has gotten me incredibly excited

…started co-writing a cute, new MG book

…read The Secret History and Paper Towns

…participated in a book club

…gotten half way through David Levithan’s Every Day

…caught up on my Nerdfighter videos

 

 

Like Choosing Between My Children

A sad thing happened this weekened. I finished my last John Green book. That’s right, I’ve now officially read them all. What’s a girl to do? I’ve been anxiously following the TFIOS movie updates and perusing the Vlogbrothers videos for any hint that John might be near the completion of a new novel (unfortunately, it sounds like he’s currently just struggling to get something down on paper). So now, all I have to do is sit and wait and contemplate the greatness of his current body of work.

Which got me to thinking, which John Green book is best and which is the worst? Of course, they are all genius in their own way, but I mean, okay, if I had to choose, what would be the order?

Here’s my John Green list, what’s yours?

1. The Fault in Our Stars. I can’t help it. I know it’s not his Printz winner (and disclaminer: I didn’t read the Printz winner last year), but I feel like it should have won! This book is a masterpiece. Some infinities are bigger than other infinities.

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2. Looking for Alaska. This was a tough choice between #2 and #3. But ultimately I went for Looking for Alaska because I love the Famous Last Words trope and I love the mysterious end and the way the book is set up as a certain number of days “Before” and a certain number of days “After.” Is it possible to read a John Green book and not learn something? The way out of the labryinth of suffering is to forgive.

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3. Will Grayson, Will Grayson. Okay, if you’re a purist, this is half-written by David Levithan. But I mean, yeah, it’s half-written by David-freaking-Levithan, so….  Tiny Cooper may be one of the best fictional characters ever. Also, I finally learned about Schrodinger’s Cat! Keeping the box closed only keeps you in the dark, not the universe.

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4. An Abundance of Katherines. I think this might be a controversial choice over #5, but I guess I’m just a rebel like that. Hear me out, though. This book actually made me kind of interested in math. MATH, people. So, you see what an amazing feat that is, right? Plus, there is something really funny about a failed child prodigy. Books are the ultimate dumpees.

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5. Paper Towns. Last and, well, I guess for some reason least ot me, Paper Towns. This is the book I just finished. And while it actually has my favorite John Green underlying “idea” (people are more mirrors than windows) and I loved learning about Walt Whitman, the actual story was my least favorite. Still. Choosing between JG books is like choosing between my favorite between my children (which, um, I don’t have yet, but you get the picture.)

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Shiny & New

After weeks of brainstorming and pitching and waiting for the right idea to finally rise to the surface, I finally have a new project! Last week, I sent Agent Dan 4 pitches and he chose one. I now have to flesh it out a bit and send him some more info on it, but I’m so glad to have something to focus on again in earnest. It’s been awhile since I’ve worked on something new, so this is exciting!

And, if you read last week’s post about writing a list of everything that ”lights your mind on fire,” I actually get to write about something with almost everything on that list! Unreliable narrators, dueling POVs and, ok, there aren’t any serial killers, but there is a very gruesome murder, so I’ll be free to get all of my true crime love and knowledge out on the page.

Don’t you love this time where you can pretend that THIS will be the book that goes perfectly smoothly? I’m sure I’ll never get stuck once! The whole plot will fall into place! The characters will all make total sense to me!

Blissful ignorance…

Top Ten Tuesday: Books I Recommend the Most

Recommending books can be stressful–especially when you’re continuously trying to win over converts to the “Written Word.” But this week’s Top Ten Tuesday assignment asks for our go-to recommendations and our commentary that go with them. Here are mine:

10. The Hobbit by J.R.R. Tolkein - If you’ve wanted your whole life to read The Lord of the Rings but seem to never get around to it, try The Hobbit. Honestly, it’s my favorite of the 4. Is that blasphemous? It’s just a good time read with lots of adventure at a quick clip. And I’d choose Bilbo over Frodo any day.

9. Looking for Alaska by John Green – If you want to read another John Green book, but aren’t sure what, this is a good go-to. It won the Printz. It’s beautifully written with one of Green’s signature tropes. Basically, you won’t regret it.

8.  The Art of Racing in the Rain by Garth Stein – If you love dogs you have to love this! Even people that hate to read love Art of Racing in the Rain. Plus it’s relatively short so people will fly through it unexpectedly.

7. Anna and the French Kiss by Stephanie Perkins - So much less fluffy than it sounds. Perfect beach read. Perfect read period. Especially if you’re contemplating any European travel.

6. Forest of Hands and Teeth by Carrie Ryan – Literary zombie book. I mean, even the title, right?

5. Thirteen Reasons Why by Jay Asher – such a great high concept premise, it sells itself. Suicide note, a message for each person that contributed to said suicide on each side of the cassette tape. I read this in one sitting. A great YA read for our generation of YA.

4. Divergent by Veronica Roth – If looking for high action and want to get on the YA dystopian bandwagon, this is a great place to start. You and your friends will be talking about which faction you belong to for weeks.

3. Before I Fall by Lauren Oliver – This is my writer girl crush. This book is so unexpectedly good. Honestly, you wouldn’t expect a Groundhog’s day premise to take on such meaning. But Oliver captures high school perfectly. It’ll certainly bring back memories–though maybe not fond ones.

2. Gone Girl by Gillian Flynn – Unreliable narrators, a dissection of relationships, plus a thriller. Unputdownable

1. The Fault in Our Stars by John Green – If you don’t cry during this you may be a robot.

Lists

First of all, can I just say I’m SO excited that Shailene Woodley was officially cast in The Fault in our Stars. I’ve been watching this girl since the first season of Secret Life of the American Teenager (what, I said that out loud?) and really fell in love with her in The Descendants. Now, she’s going to be Tris in Divergent and Hazel Grace in TFIOS? Good for her, good for her. Mainly, I’m excited because based on her and John’s comments, it’s clear how much she loves the book and gets it. I think that’s what was so endearing about the cast of Harry Potter as opposed to…well…

Side note: Ricky from Secret Life of the American Teenager is set to be in Fox’s Delirium? Thoughts?

 

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Anyway, this is a short post, mainly to contemplate why and if I may need new interests.

Laini Taylor has a section on her site Not for Robots about brainstorming and coming up with new ideas, which, as I mentioned yesterday, just so happens to be where I’m at this very moment. So, the idea is that you’re supposed to freewrite anything that comes to mind in a big long list that “lights your mind on fire.” By making this list, you are then able to determine what sort of book would truly excite you and that you should therefore write.

So, very dutifully, I’ve done this. I took out my pen and pad and just started scribbling down things that I love. The things I want to wikipedia every chance I get. The things that send me down rabbit holes…you get the picture.

Now imagine my list as one of those tag clouds where the words that appear the most are in big letters and the ones that appear the least are teeny tiny. Ok, here’s what mine looks like:

 

Serial Killers

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Ugh. So for anyone that knows me, this isn’t a surprise. I love me some serial killers. For instance, last night, my husband made me watch American Psycho. And I rarely stay awake in movies but I was happily watching this one all the way through. And he was all like, wow, not many girls like that movie. And I’m like, HELLO! SERIAL KILLERS! But that doesn’t necessarily mean I want to write a book about serial killers. I know, weird, right? Which leads me to the belief that I potentially need some new interests. So what are some things that are really awesome?

Other things I like Gangs, Street Families, true crime…okay these are all just milder degrees of serial killer. Damn.

Infinite Choices

The Vlogbrothers once posted a video about growing up and how often teenagers (and ever adults) feel that they have to, like, choose this one Thing that they’re going to do with their whole entire life at the expensive of all other Things. Think doctor, lawyer, professor, whatever. And that once that choice was made the path was set. The other options seal off like that crazy cave door in Harry Potter 6. Anyway. Of course, Hank and John refuted this construct with the example of, yanno, their lives and whatnot. But John admits that options do, indeed, narrow with every choice made. In other words, it’d be pretty darn difficult at 70 to go back and decide you want to be a firefighter. [Cue someone emailing me an article about the grandpa fireman or whatever. Good for them.]

The idea is that before you make any choices, the possibilities are endless.

That’s kind of where I am now.

Recently, my agent and I had a little sit down phone chat in which we discussed my capital ‘C’ Career. Up until now, I’ve focused heavily on ghoswriting. That’s great. I’ve learned so much over the past few years and I regret nothing. But there seems to at last be a consensus that it’s time to focus solely on my own books. Let’s just say, it’s been a long time since I had free reign to pick any idea and/or ideas I wanted and work only on those! But there are, like, infinite ideas! And, okay, so they might not all occur to me at once. But they totally could. Except whenever you start to focus on one, the choices narrow. The other ideas begin to seal off while you work on The One. Granted, more so in writing, than in life, those ideas will always be there to pick up later. But it’s a choice nonetheless. And there’s this fear that you’re not picking the. best. idea. ever.

So, that’s my status. Playing with a bunch of ideas and not quite ready to narrow my options.

But if Nerdfighters taught us anything, it’s that not choosing is a choice as well. And it’s one that still significantly manages to significantly narrow your options.

 

Our Very Own By the Book

So, I’m peeking my head out of the revision cave for a split second to post. Shana Silver and I decided it’d be fun to answer the NYT By the Book section questions ourselves. My answers are below and after you should hop over to Shana’s blog to see what she had to say! Feel free to snag the questions and answer them on your own blog–leave a link in the comments!

What was the best book you read last year?

Gone Girl by Gillian Flynn. I have an unhealthy obsession with that book.

When and where do you like to read? 

In the bathtub or in bed before the lights go out usually.

Are you a fast or slow reader? How many books would you say you read in a year?

I’m fast for the most part. I wouldn’t say that equals an inordinate amount of books, though. I’m more of a binge reader, but I’m trying to become more slow and steady. I’d say about 25 books/year.

How do you decide what to read next? Do you read more than one book at a time?

Recommendations from friends primarily. Or blogs that I follow and trust.

Who are your favorite authors?

John Green, my literary and personal hero.  Half the reason I want to be an author is under the strange illusion that by some twist of fate we’ll get to hang out someday. Lauren Oliver, William Styron, Sara Zarr.

What’s your preferred literary genre? Any guilty pleasures?

Right now? Young adult contemporary, but it changes. I don’t feel guilty about anything I read.

 Are there any particular kinds of books you prefer to listen to on audiobook rather than read?

I don’t really know until I’m listening to them. There are definitely some books I enjoy more than others on audiobook, but I think that depends on the narrator, production of the audiobook, etc. I would always prefer to read than listen to an audiobook, though.

How do you organize your personal library?

By stuffing books on the shelf of my nightstand and on the shelves in the garage. I have a dream, though, of someday having beautiful bookshelves where I can sit and look at my collection. I sincerely doubt that it’ll be organized even then though.

What are your most cherished books, and where do you keep them? 

My husband gave me a very beautiful and rare edition of The Hobbit. It has illustrations by Tolkein. I have a box set of the John Green books with an autographed copy of The Fault in Our Stars. Those are in our living room on a shelf. I have a tattered old paperback of Sophie’s Choice that I like an awful lot too, but it’s in a box.

Are you a rereader? What books in particular do you find yourself returning to, and why?

I used to be. I read The Hobbit 12 times for instance, when I was young. I’d say I’m not so much anymore though. As evidence, I’ve only read the Harry Potter series the whole way through twice!

What were your favorite books as a child? Do you have a favorite character or hero from one of those books? Is there one book you wish all children would read?

Lord of the Rings, A Wrinkle in Time, Tuck Everlasting, James and the Giant Peach, Matilda, The Golden Compass, True Confessions of Charlotte Doyle…

What book had the greatest impact on you? What book made you want to write?

That’s tough. On Writing by Stephen King had a big impact on me and it’s one of the books I continuously turn back to. Clearly, I already wanted to write by the time I read that, though. I think I always wanted to write, but I certainly romantacized authors. Sophie’s Choice with Styron’s semi (though maybe faux?) autobiographical Stingo was an important book for me.

How have your tastes or interests evolved over time? Any recent shifts in the kinds of books you find appealing or gratifying?

I go through phases. I only read “classics” for most of my early adult years and Pulitzer winners. Then I discovered there is this whole world of new fiction coming out. I started reading YA and was so caught up in all the exacting things that were happening within that perspective. I’m now starting to split my time more evently between adult and YA.

Disappointing, overrated, just not good: What was the last book you hated? Do you remember the last book you put down without finishing?

I have put down several books recently, but I’m not sure I’d blame it on the books. I’ve just lost momentum when caught up in deadlines, etc. I’ll pick them back up again hopefully.

If you could meet any writer, dead or alive, who would it be? What would you want to know? 

John Green! I think I would want to know everything about his writing process because that’s an area he doesn’t touch on a whole lot. Then I’d want to discuss the French Revolution or something.

If you could meet any character from literature, who would it be? 

Hermione Granger.

What’s the best love story you’ve ever read?

The Notebook.

What do you plan to read next?

The Secret History by Donna Tartt for book club!

Weekend Update

First of all, congrats to my personal hero, John Green, on his fireside chat with the President AND his forthcoming baby girl. It was a big week in Nerdfighteria. If you missed the fireside chat/Google hangout, you can find it on Youtube. It’s not available on the Vlogbrothers channel in full and, if you search through the news sites, they generally only had the live feed, so you can’t view it there.

My husband, not knowing any of this, still managed to get me a very a propos Valentine’s Day gift, a box set of all John Green’s books and a signed copy of The Fault in Our Stars. Love it (and him)!!

John Green Collection

Then on Saturday, Rob told me we’d be going to an early birthday brunch (My bday is this Sunday) with his parents, so we got ready, but to my surprise, there was a party bus waiting outside our house! Even better, these girls were in it!

Surprise Birthday Bus

And off we went on a wine tour to Fredricksburg.

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Later, my girlfriends and longtime Fumbling with Fiction supporters, Emily and Kelley, surprised me with framed copies of two of my covers. How cute did these turn out?

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…Which my husband thought was very interesting, since apparently great minds think alike!

So that was my both bookish and fun weekend. It was wonderful seeing my friends and family, who obviously know me oh-so-well.

Today, I’m anxiously awaiting agent notes on my latest revisions. I’m inserting a little mini-scene on my own, too. Happy Monday, everyone.