The Vlogbrothers once posted a video about growing up and how often teenagers (and ever adults) feel that they have to, like, choose this one Thing that they’re going to do with their whole entire life at the expensive of all other Things. Think doctor, lawyer, professor, whatever. And that once that choice was made the path was set. The other options seal off like that crazy cave door in Harry Potter 6. Anyway. Of course, Hank and John refuted this construct with the example of, yanno, their lives and whatnot. But John admits that options do, indeed, narrow with every choice made. In other words, it’d be pretty darn difficult at 70 to go back and decide you want to be a firefighter. [Cue someone emailing me an article about the grandpa fireman or whatever. Good for them.]
The idea is that before you make any choices, the possibilities are endless.
That’s kind of where I am now.
Recently, my agent and I had a little sit down phone chat in which we discussed my capital ‘C’ Career. Up until now, I’ve focused heavily on ghoswriting. That’s great. I’ve learned so much over the past few years and I regret nothing. But there seems to at last be a consensus that it’s time to focus solely on my own books. Let’s just say, it’s been a long time since I had free reign to pick any idea and/or ideas I wanted and work only on those! But there are, like, infinite ideas! And, okay, so they might not all occur to me at once. But they totally could. Except whenever you start to focus on one, the choices narrow. The other ideas begin to seal off while you work on The One. Granted, more so in writing, than in life, those ideas will always be there to pick up later. But it’s a choice nonetheless. And there’s this fear that you’re not picking the. best. idea. ever.
So, that’s my status. Playing with a bunch of ideas and not quite ready to narrow my options.
But if Nerdfighters taught us anything, it’s that not choosing is a choice as well. And it’s one that still significantly manages to significantly narrow your options.